Day of Hope #26
Friday February 13, 2015
Goal: Let it go, let it go, can’t hold it back anymore………sing it
Quote: “Today I close the door to the past, open the door to the future, take a deep breath, step on through and start a new chapter in my life.” - Unknown
I left work at 1pm to get a massage then, take a nap. Idgie made me a pitcher of homemade margaritas for my day of hope. I went to Café Ole and got a pre margarita while I was waiting for my shrimp salad, and chips and salsa, to go. Then, I put on my fancy nightgown from my day of hope #2, and watched the movie, Eat Pray Love for inspiration, because today I am doing something big and scary for my Friday the 13th.
Sometimes, a day of hope can be something difficult, but I believe that it will bring my future self-joy, even if it is stressful for me at the current moment. This evening was tough for me. So many emotions are running through my mind; Sad, happy, scared, frustrated, and excited. I was saying goodbye to the wonderful house I bought a few years ago. My vision board house from day of hope #3. I was doing this, so I could say hello to a new adventure in Lake Forest, Illinois. Same type of job, but more intensity, with new people in a new area, a new house, with a new doctor, new dentist, and so on.
I had been in the Boise area for almost 18 years and my life felt so comfortable and safe. I had gone through a divorce in Utah and moved to Idaho with two very small children. I was a single mom for so many years. Everything my kids and I had built, and everything I knew to be familiar and safe, was in Idaho. All my dear friends, my kids, and all my comfort items were in Boise.
The rest of my family is huge, with 44+ cousins, who all have two to six kids, and are within driving distance from Boise. Now I have to get on a plane if I want to see them in person. I stressed and stressed about this decision, but I believed, for the most part, I was doing the right thing. I am single and have no reason not to go on an adventure. But, leaving all the comforts and safety of having people and places I know nearby, was not easy.
To do this send off to my house, and to the old life, I did something cool. I memorized every word of the song, “Let It Go” by Idina Menzel from the kid’s movie Frozen, along with the song, “This Year,” by Chantal Kreviazuk from the movie Serendipity.
Frozen is about letting go and becoming your true self, and This Year is about the year ahead, and how amazing it will be. It took me a good month to learn them. I sang them all the time, at home, and in the car, to get the words exactly right. Then on this wonderful night, I sang both songs, in every single room in the house. The full song in every room. Three bedrooms, two bathrooms, kitchen, front room, living room, and garage. It was a lot of singing, and my voice was a bit hoarse the next day, but it was so worth it. I cried, laughed out loud, and danced away.
Then, I did something even crazier, and changed my clothes into a white button-up dress shirt, put on some white fuzzy calf-high socks, and played the song, “Old Time Rock and Roll,” by Bob Seger. I slid back and forth on my fancy hardwood floors in the front room and living room areas. I had my invisible microphone to hit all the notes, just like Tom Cruise in the movie, Risky Business. When I was done, I was exhausted, but I felt so free, and at peace, with my decision to move, and ready for more adventures.
My lesson of hope: Saying goodbye is tough but not taking chances is tougher for your future.
